Today has really been one of these days where I just want to sit inside my house and watch sad movies, so I have an excuse of why I am crying. I think I have reached my break down point in this deployment. The time where I have had enough of it and I just want my husband home. I have been nothing but positive through this whole thing so far and It is now hitting me harder than ever. The fact that I have not heard a single thing from my husband in three days does not help either. I know he is on the horrible schedule right now, but he usually sends me a FB message. I haven't even gotten that. It really sucks because all I have are negative thoughts going through my head. Did I do something wrong, is he mad at me, is he okay, is he even still at the same location. I know I should not sit here and blame myself but it is the only thing that keeps running through my head. I know it makes it even worse when I do blame myself. I just want to talk to hear from him. I know I probably sound like a horrible person because there are many of you wives/significant other that go days to weeks without talking to your man. I think this is just so hard for me because I am use to us talking everyday. I never thought that I would sleep with my phone by my head on loud, and with my FB always pulled up along with skype. Man I sound pitiful.
So I am taking my day to sit at home and do nothing, but be lazy. there was so much that I wanted to do today, but I just do not have any motivation to do any of it all. School is definitely out of the question, even though I really need to do it. I am just going to sit on the couch and cuddle with the animals, the ones I know that can listen to me when ever I need them. : )