Day 15

Day 15: Something you don't leave the house without. Why? 

Right now I would have to say my cell phone. Every time Joe is away that thing is glued to my side. It even comes with me to the gym, while I'm cooking, and even the restroom. HA. I am pitiful. But I never know when he is going to call because his schedule is unreliable. But we aren't going to get into that, because I am getting so close to the return date. Kinda....

But I really do think this last little bit I have is going to go by real fast. I have so much going on. Like this weekend my friend from back at home is coming to visit me. I am really excited about it because I have not sen her in almost two years. It is a much needed visit. It is her spring break and she decided to come to cold, damp, rainy Washington to see me.. I feel so loved, I truly do. I know we are going to go to Seattle and site see there for a day or two. I really want to go to the First Starbucks ever that is there. So that is a must. But I'm sure I will blog more about it once it all happens, but as of now I have no idea what we are going to do. Any ideas you all have that is a must see in Seattle is always accepted. So since she flies in Friday I will prob not be blogging much throughout the weekend until Tuesday once she leaves. But be prepared with a long post with lots of pictures.

Anyways I totally got off subject here. Back to why I always take my phone with me. Besides not knowing with Joe is going to call, I feel as if it is the only connection I have to my family and friends back home. I already never talk to them that much as it is and If they call me with important news and I miss it i hate the anticipation and not knowing. I do have to admit, every time I see my phone go off and its my sisters calling my heart drops. I always think they are calling with bad news! Ha. I guess after receiving that phone call about my dad from them both I can understand why.

Enjoy your Thursday tomorrow! : )

A little blogging fun!

First : To continue on with my daily spring forward blogging post

If you had unlimited resources, what would your life look like?

Oh man, if I had unlimited resources we would so be set. This is what our new life would look like..

This would be nice, and I would so buy it if we had the money. However, I would settle for something like this

And in this drive way we would so have to have at least one of these or all. 

Audi r8

Audi TT RS

Tahoe

We would also be totally debt free, and have no payments beside the monthly basic. Cable, electricity, ETC. I would also go crazy decorating the house. I love buying things to put in the house and I have a huge list that I could finally complete. I would of course spoil our little fur-babies. We would have just about every gadget in the living room. Surround sound, new TV to suit the husband, and whatever else he would want. 

I can dream right? 

Second : I was tagged by Lauren @ Going the distance to participate in Handwriting fun. It looked like fun and I thought I would share:

Handwriting fun
Copy your answers on a sheet of paper, then post them on your blog. Once you're done tag 3 other blogs to play too! Have fun!

1. What is your name/blogger name?
2.What's your blog's URL?
3. Write "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog."
4. Favorite quote?
5. Your favorite song?
6. Your favorite band/singers?
7. Anything else you want to say?
8. Tag three ladies to participate.

This is so hard to read, I am sorry!  But I tag
kelsey @ Home is where the heart is
Rebecca @ We all see the same sky
and
Abigail @ Cama and a whole lotta love


Hope everyone had a happy Monday, so glad it is over!!

Day 12

Before I do my daily spring forward blog I want to say that I finally got to talk to Joe. He called me earlier and we talked for a good bit. His Internet in his dorm was out and he was just to lazy to walk somewhere to let me know. What a jerk huh? But I am just glad he is okay, and I think he learned his lesson about not trying to talk to me while he can because he had a really big scare on his flight the other day. I am not going to use all the technical words because who am i kidding i don't even know what they mean. But basically something broke while they were in the air and this part controlled the plane while flying, so every time they would hit a turbulence the Jet would loose control and start to bank. He said they had to contact emergency control on the ground and that they were all waiting on the run way, expecting them to crash land. While hearing this story I am already freaking out, and thanking god he is fine. He then tells me that while all this was happening he was thinking " this would happen the day that I didn't get to talk to Michel and tell her I love her" I lost it. Started crying, and that totally made up for his jerkness of not talking to me the past 2 in half days. So I am so glad he is okay, and that I got to talk to him.

Day 12 – A photograph of the town you grew up in. What did you love/hate about it?

 I was born in a really small town in GA, however I was not raised there my whole life. We moved around a lot. From New Orleans, Panama City FL, Dothan Alabama, North Carolina, and pretty much all over GA. However My dad did live in Cairo along with pretty much the rest of my family so I was always there. ( My parents were divorced) I lived with my dad for a good bit, and then some with my mom in Albany Ga. As for Cairo when I say small I really mean small. There is total of three stop lights before you are in and out of it. But I love living in the small towns. So as for pictures I really don't have

Many because it is impossible to find pictures online of this small town. LOL. The picture to your right is considered downtown!! I know right, pitiful. HA. We do have a super walmart in this small town though. : ) 


And as for Day 13– Where are you spiritually? In a valley or on a mountain? I am deciding to skip this one because I am not sure how to answer this question.

half way point breakdown

Today has really been one of these days where I just want to sit inside my house and watch sad movies, so I have an excuse of why I am crying. I think I have reached my break down point in this deployment. The time where I have had enough of it and I just want my husband home. I have been nothing but positive through this whole thing so far and It is now hitting me harder than ever. The fact that I have not heard a single thing from my husband in three days does not help either. I know he is on the horrible schedule right now, but he usually sends me a FB message. I haven't even gotten that. It really sucks because all I have are negative thoughts going through my head. Did I do something wrong, is he mad at me, is he okay, is he even still at the same location. I know I should not sit here and blame myself but it is the only thing that keeps running through my head. I know it makes it even worse when I do blame myself. I just want to talk to hear from him. I know I probably sound like a horrible person because there are many of you wives/significant other that go days to weeks without talking to your man. I think this is just so hard for me because I am use to us talking everyday. I never thought that I would sleep with my phone by my head on loud, and with my FB always pulled up along with skype.  Man I sound pitiful.

So I am taking my day to sit at home and do nothing, but be lazy. there was so much that I wanted to do today, but I just do not have any motivation to do any of it all. School is definitely out of the question, even though I really need to do it. I am just going to sit on the couch and cuddle with the animals, the ones I know that can listen to me when ever I need them. : ) 

school = stress

Lately I have been so stressed. With working full time, and going to school full time has really been kicking my ass. I have always attended school and worked at the same time, but not this much. I am a full time student, which this semester means 5 classes only because I want to get my full finical aid. This is supposed to be my last semester, but it really does not look like it is going to be this way. One of my classes, my book was two weeks late arriving in the mail, so I missed two assignments, and in my other classes I have been just slacking. I forget all the time that I am on a different time zone then my classes or on, so when things are due at 8 PM it is due at 5 PM here and I totally don't realize this till after the deadline. Two days ago i get an email from my teacher saying that the test we are having, Which would be open for two days ( Thursday and Friday)and it will have to be proctored and that our proctors have the password. Well this is horrible for me because I didn't get this email till Thursday morning and my proctor only test on Thursdays at 8AM and of course I would be at work then and Friday she doesn't even come in. So otherwise I watched myself get a big fat ZERO yesterday on a test that I had no control over. So with all this being said I am really tired of school and sometimes I begin to think WHY? Why am I trying so hard to get my degree, when I have a good paying job that I will move up on and will more than likely end up paying me better than any job I get with my degree. Then I remember that I know I will not always have this job and wont be so lucky next time when looking for a job.
So with this being said, I basically believe that I am not going to finish this semester and I will be taking a couple classes over next semester. BOO! Someone HELP me. : ) ha.

Also, Joe is doing well over there, i believe anyways. I haven't really talked to him in like 3 days because he schedule is really crappy and he is flying when I am awake and asleep when I am awake. I get a FB message ever now and then. IT sucks because I could really use his support in times like this. But I wont get into all this on here.

Anyways with all that being said I decided to do this survey that I found on my friend Kelsey's blog

A. Age: 21 about to be 22 in April!

B. Bed size: We have a queen, but really want a king. however it would not fit in these small base housing bedrooms : (

C. Chore you dislike:Cleaning the bathroom. Especially the guest bathroom. I just do not like toilets. GROSS

D. Dogs: We have one beautiful dog, Auzza

E. Essential start to your day: Rushing! Put the dog out, get dressed, pull my hair up, brush my teeth, let the dog in, and head out the door grabbing a cereal bar. I should probably wake up earlier that 20 minuets before I have to be at work.

F. Favorite color :Emerald green!

G. Gold or silver: Silver.

H. Height: 5'2

I. Instruments you play(ed): ehh, yeah none. My sisters took that role, and I took the sports.

J. Job title: Student/Youth program assistant

K. Kids: none

L. Live: my hometown is Cairo, GA, but living in WA now

M. Mom’s name: Donna

N. Nicknames: chel, which I hate, My family calls me ladybug, and Joe calls me bug, or baby bug. And Joe and I have a few together that our friends like to call us. Milkjugs is one. You would have to know our last name to get it. ha.

O. Overnight hospital stays: once

P. Pet peeves: So many, but one that drives me nuts is, when there are people around me eating and I am not eating. I hate hearing them eat, even when they aren't smacking.

Q. Quote- "When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through.

R. Righty or lefty: Righty, but I tumble with my left. Weird

S. Siblings: 2 sisters 1 brother

T. Time you wake up: 5:20AM

U. Underwear: I am addicted to lacy boy shorts, or underwear.

V. Vegetables you don't like: spinach, mushrooms, cucumbers, and onions.

W. What makes you run late: Me waking up later or My dog.

X. X-rays you’ve had: To many. I dislocated my shoulder tearing my rotator cuff, and couple of ligaments so I had tone done on that.

Y. Yummy food you make: Rocky top chicken, mashed potatoes, mac-n-cheese, peas!

Z. Zoo animal favorites:Giraffes

Best Vacation and Trip EVER!

Day 11: THE GREATEST VACATION OR TRIP YOU HAVE EVER HAD


My favorite Vacation that I have ever been on would have to be the time tat I went to Key West and stayed a whole 2 weeks there with my Aunt. I was either 17 or 18 and It was during the summer. We went swimming with the dolphins, snorkeling, took a huge boat out, went shopping, visited the pier, and just had a great time! I do not have many pictures from this vacation anymore. They were all on my old laptop that got stolen, but the ones I do have or just of me.

This was our house we stayed at backyard!

Ugh Bad Picture! lol

It was really a great time and a much needed trip to get away from some unnecessary problems back at home. My Aunt always spoiled me growing up and took me to some amazing places.

Now for my favorite trip I have ever gone on would be the trip the husband and I took once he proposed. Panama City! Even though I once lived there, and I have been there thousands of times, and go every spring break it was just so much more special this time. It was the time where we got to tell my side of the family we were getting married and show off my beautiful ring. : ) We even had our proposal pictures taken here, not professionally though so don't judge : ) ha. A friend took them. Also this trip meant a lot to me because he finally got to meet my best friend/sister. I was so excited for her to finally meet him and to give the good news was just ten times better. : )

Pamper me

Day 10- What is your favorite way to pamper yourself? 

Oh man how I wish I did this more. My favorite way to be pampered is having a day where I have to do nothing at all. Where I can wear my pajamas all day and wear no makeup. Considering I do not get to do this much I enjoy doing absolutely nothing and not going out to get pampered.  To add to pampering I LOVE when the sweet husband of mine decides to pamper me as well. He has one hell of a good back massage. He gets so into it as well, using oils lotions and all. Who needs to spend money when I have my own. : ) He knows when I need these too. I get all stressed and angry, sometimes he will look at me and say go lay down and take you clothes off Ill be there soon. Most of the time im like NO YOU PERV! Not knowing what he meant. I mean he could say it in a more polite way.

On a different note: Today as been a blah day! I love how even when they are deployed they still find a way to make you mad at them. UGH! But we are officially half way done with this deployment! It is coming up so fast and I can not wait. Well I am off to go eat at my friends house for dinner again for the third time this week. She told my husband that they have adopted me while he is away. : ) 

A satisfied girl, with the best advise.

 

Day 8: The best advise I have ever received.

I have received tons of good advise from so many people, but the one that sticks in my head and I think about everyday is what my dad use to tell me. "No matter how hard or how negative things get, stay positive and everything will be ten times better and you will achieve a million more things in life than others." I live by these, i really do. It does help me through all things in life.

Day 9: A picture of your last significant purchase. Did it satisfy a need or want?

We haven't bought anything lately because one: I am in a saving money mode right now Two: The hubby is deployed and I hate spending big money while he isn't here and Three: I am so busy working!

But right before he left we did go out on a limb and purchase something that I have grown to love while he has been away. It has been consuming most of my attention as well, considering I am constantly training and cleaning up after her. That's right I am talking about our puppy Auzza.

She was definitely worth every penny we spent on her and I am very satisfied with her. She is a Australian Sheppard, if anyone is wondering. 

Alright guys, a friend of mine has convinced me to enable AdSense to my blog. I cant believe that they actually pay for you to advertise for them. I figured why not? I am already in a saving money mode and this could so go to help with paying everything off. However I do want your opinion on it. I know some people think that it is annoying and don't like it at all.  BUT if you click on the ads that interest you, AdSense will specifically put out adds that interest you. You have to start off somewhere right? 

So if you want fill free to help me make a few extra bucks, by clicking away. 

Day 7

 

Tell us about your wedding or dream wedding? 

Well unfortunately I never got the dream wedding that I use to dream about growing up. The white elegant wedding that took place outside, by a lake with hay bails as chairs ( I know I am country)

and my bridesmaids dressed in yellow, being walked down the isle by the groomsmen in a black tux. And then Me being walked by my dad in my long white dress that took up almost the whole isle.

Well all this became a dream to me when my dad passed away when I was 17. Once Joe proposed to me and we started talking about wedding plans I realized that it was the hardest thing I have had to do since my dad has been gone. It was depressing to think about, and wedding planning is supposed to be fun. However, I really DID want an actually ceremony, but with timing and all what we had was perfect. The only thing I would change is that I wish my family could have been there. We ended up planning to get married after his basic training In San Antonio Tx and the River walk. His family was there and we had an actual ceremony where we had to say vows and all. Although I was not prepared one bit, I thought we would just saw the traditional vows, but I was caught on the spot and said a bunch of random stuff. HA. We did talk about having a actual caremony so both of our families could be there, but about halfway through planning it all we realized that it was a waste of money and that we would just have an reception to celebrate with family.

It might not have been my dream wedding, but I can say that It was the best day of my life becuase I got to marry the man of my dreams, and the man that I love with all my heart. He is truly my life and hands down the best day. We even went to Sea world afterwords. : )

Survival

Yesterday, the Teen Center here went on a camping trip for the night. They were going to go hiking and learn all about how to survive in the woods. I of course volunteer to go help because I have nothing better to do. Let me tell you it wore me out! I was exhausted last night and past out as soon as I hit the bed. But it was fun! It was an all girl camp so I did get a little tired of hearing the girl complain about not being able to wash their faces, straighten their hair, and so on. Other than that I enjoyed it. We had four SERE instructors that worked on base to come and show them a few things. They showed them how to make a fort out of things around them, how to start a fire, and on our hiking trip they showed them what to eat and what not. And on our hiking trip that had to GPS themselves around to find the next location. It was tiring especially hiking all day. Oh and did I mention that it was FREEZING. That morning it was snowing a little and eventually stopped turned into rain, and the hail! I was soaked for the longest time and I couldn't feel my toes. I guess I should have warn three pairs of socks instead of two.

Now, I am not going to share any details because I am not sure what all every knows and what I am not supposed to know and so forth. But I am sure you all know about Lybia and that they are sending troops that way as we speak. I just want to ask that everyone keeps them in your prayers and their families. I know a lot of my friends husbands/boyfriends have left already to go there and they just got home 2 weeks or a month ago. I could only imagine, and I know it is going to happen to me as well. This whole thing is stressful to me, but I remember that this is our life and I begin to think how proud I am for every single person that is fighting for us. It makes me so happy to think that I am a woman behind on of those.  : ) SO PRAY PLEASE!

On to my spring forward:

Day 5 – Something you definitely could live without.

I could so live without school!!! I am so tired of it. I have no motivation at all to finish but I know I need to. It also doesn't help when I know this person who has two bachelors and one associates and every time she applies for a job, they tell her she is too educated!!! I mean really? that is ridiculous.

Day 6 – Tell us about your best friend when you were 16, and where you two stand today.

 

taylor, me, jayme

 

These two girls Taylor and Jayme were hands down my best friends. They were there through it all, and always helped me through the worst moments in my life. We had a lot of good times together, A LOT and have so many memories of us. From spring break to just a day in class. Today, however we are still friends but not as close. The fact that I live all the way across the world does not help. I do still talk to Taylor, but not as much as I would like. 

Day 2 and 3

 Day 3 – A photo of something you ate today. Was is it worth the calories?

 Now I did not eat this today, but the other day I did. A friend of mine, husband made dinner and they always invite me over. BBQ chicken, greens, and Mash potatoes. They so stole the idea from me because i cooked it for them one night. HA. But I have to admit his chicken was better. And yes totally worth every calorie.

Day 4 – Something or someone you can't live without, because you’ve tried. 

Does my husband count?? ha That is a given. but other than that I would have to say  my facebook! I am addicted to that thing. I should really get rid of it because I never get any school done.

I know it sounds horrible, but I live on it. It is a way i keep in contact with all my family back at home and friends. Without it i would probably never talk to them because I hate talking on the phone.



So i would say thank goodness it is Friday, BUT I still have to be at work tomorrow. We are going on a camping trip and going hiking tomorrow, so they needed help. I of course voulnter for it because i have nothing better to do. Come to find out it is from 630AM to 630PM. I am going to be dead. So with that said i am heading to bed.

Spring Forward Day 2

 

Link up if you have not yet!!!

Day two: Something you really don't like about yourself 

Have I ever mentioned that I have trust issues?. Well I do and I hate it. I have been this way ever since my EX cheated on me in highschool. You know how those relationships are, Dated a guy for three years thought I was head over heels and he left for college while I was still in highchool cheated on me and didn't tell me. Then he comes home without telling me, and we happen to see each other at the same party and he brought her!! Oh yeah it went down. LOL. So ever since then I have never trusted anyone. Sometimes it may come off that I am being super jealous, but im not. I am still this way today, with Joe and sometimes he gets so mad at me, but I can't help it. Even with friends too, not so much though.  Joe understands why i am this way. I have gotten a lot better lately. I think it is more of me not trusting other people around him, more than him. I don't know I am weird. So if anybody has any advise on how to get over this I am free for the tips. : )

Spring forward

A fellow blogger is hosting a spring forward blog challenge and I am glad I cam across it. I am doing one that is very similar on Facebook and it really does make time go by faster and I really need this.

 

If you would like to join the fun fill free to visit her page and link up! 

Day 1 A picture of you and something you like about yourself..

My husband tells me that he love that I am so independent. So I would have to say I love the fact that I am a strong independent person. I feel as when it comes to the toughest situations I always seem to find a way around them no matter how hard they are in life. I know you have to keep a positive in life to love you life. So I remind myself this everyday. I know where my place is in life and how I need to get there. I also know that this crazy military path we are on is just the right path for us because we are strong enough to survive it.

On a different note: Tonight was the first night I got to video skype with Joe since he has been gone. When we talk it is either through Facebook or just voice skype. So when I saw his precious face on the computer screen I could not help to get teary eyed. I did not realize how much I actually miss him until I saw his face. Is it bad that I don't like video skyping? LOL. It makes me too sad.

Take a secound and think.

Today I was on facebook, and a friend of mine posted a real interesting post that i wanted to share. It really makes you think and while I read this I was totally blown away...

"Sept 11th(NY) Jan11th(Haiti) and Mar 11th (Japan)...Luke 21:10-11....Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be great earthquakes, famines and pestilences in various places, and fearful events and great signs from heaven." Jesus says, For behold I come quickly, (so...ask yourself..... ARE YOU READY?)"


I usually don't like bringing religion to my blog, but this just really made me think. 

I love March

I know I have not mentioned how much I love March, but I really do. Only because it is the only month of the year where I can literally just watch college basketball all the time and the husband not get mad at me. Granted he is not here to share the wonderful outcome of today's game between Duke and North Carolina, but I am still loving every moment of it. Of course Duke won. This is now 18 times they have won the ACC championship since Coach K has been there. I am one proud fan cant you tell? The funny thing is that Joe has never really liked basketball and one year I took him to a Duke Fl State game and ever since then he has slowly converted over to the good side. Come to find out that he was over watching the game today while being deployed. It made me smile. : ) But I have put my brackets is for the madness to begin. Last year most of mine came true, and i am curious to see how this year goes. I am not going to share yet because I want everyone to have a chance to put theirs in. Am I the only one that is excited about this? More than likely I am, but it is ok.

I LOVE MARCH MADNESS!

Besides all the excitement with March Madness my life has been a blur. Which is why I have not been blogging much. So a little update: Deployment isn't that bad, I just really miss him a lot and it is only hard on the weekends for me. My friends keep me really busy and I love them for it. I have come to a place here in our new home, Washington, that I love. I have grown to love it here, and I have found the place where i fit in best, and found my group of friends that are always here for me and it truly helps a lot. Now all I need is for my fellow military girlfriends to move here, you know you are, and of course my family to be closer and I would be set. It is about time that i finally start to settle in. We have been here since July and I am just now feeling at home. Took long enough huh? But I do think that this deployment had really helped me come closer to the friends that I have here and they treat me so well. From feeding me, to just texting to make sure I ate dinner, or to just hang out watching teary eyed TV shows. Needless to say if it wasn't for a great group of girls I would be so miserable. However, I am so ready for him to come home.


Also this weekend Caitlin her husband and I took our dogs to the dog park and Auzza loved it. She had a blast and we saw other Australian shepherds there too. She had the tendency to try and roll with the big dogs and got pounced on a couple of times but she finally learned she wasn't that big yet. HA but here are some pictures I took.

She was so warn out after. I plan on trying to take her out there a lot. we will see.